Trying to move forward

Heres a little bit of background about me:
I'm now in my late 20's.
I was married at 21.
I was divorced at 23.
I live at home again.
I've dropped out of one 4-year college.
I have taken just about as many credits at the community college that they'll let someone take.
I have little to no desire or drive regarding my future.

So thats where I am today. I'm trying to get into an accelerated BA program for working adults. Before doing that, I need to get outlines of some of my community college courses, but they were taken so long ago, that the new ones won't cover it. For the last two weeks, I've been trying to get a hold of department heads, office administrators, transfer counselors, etc. So far, I've got 4 of the 5 covered. I sent off a new batch of emails again last night, and this morning got a new round of "Here's where to download them" and directions to get the current ones only. I'm sure that I was very, very clear and explicit in my email. These are people who are supposed to be intelligent.

So I start thinking: Even if I get all this paperwork, the college I'm trying to get into may not even count all of this. Then thats longer before I get my degree. Even if I get my degree, what the hell am I gonna do with it. Almost any job that requires a BA, also seems to need some type of drive to succeed. And I just don't have that. All I really want is to be able to live without needing, but here in California, that means making more money than I have the drive for.

Its not that I want to live with my dad for the rest of my life, but how am I supposed to afford to live on my own? Houses keep getting bigger and more expensive. Even with the "housing crisis", most places are too expensive to even consider on entry level salaries. Apartments? In California, the law states that a tenant must prove a monthly income 3x the amount of rent. Somehow, I don't think that any entry level job will earn me enough to work within 45 minutes of said job.

And thats just right now. How about when I graduate in Fall 2010 or Spring 2011? It just seems so far off and that things will only get worse. Even if the economy technically gets better, that means that prices will go up again.

I just feel screwed no matter what.